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Because I Can

So I enjoy my friends and our mildly odd practices.

Pour example:

The majority of teens/twenty-somethings spend their weekends partying and getting wasted. While we partake in those activities from time to time, most days we sit in fast food places pondering our existence, and discussing improper pluralization. I think more fun is had when alcomohals are not involved.

I like to think it's because we are more intelligent. Perhaps we're just boring.

it is the most gorgeous day outside!!!!

I love my house. More specifically, the space surrounding my house. The rain has made it super green and all the trees are blowing in the breeze. *sigh* Happiness.

I am aware that my blogs tend to flow towards the more depressing and angsty. I have yet to determine why this is. I shall try to make it stop.

I has Peach Mango Fuze!!! Delicious! I think I will take up the study of adjectives. It really is quite intriguing. Or not...I'm a nerd.

I think I will go play outside. Morris also loves the sun! We will go on adventures! (for newcomers, Morris is my cat).

and so...

so i'm pro at multitasking. I want to know if this is a good thing to put on my resume or not. Some people think it implies work is done sloppily but i disagree.

apparently I have commitment issues. Shocker, I know, but I never really thought about it a lot...i can't even commit to a habit. (see Tory's inconsistent smoking)

*ponders*

*denial*

*moves on*

perhaps i will move away. Spain is nice. Also France. Need to brush up on my languages if that is to be the plan.

good lord my head feels funny. and there is a crazy rushing in my ears. It's been there for a while and I'm wondering if I should be worried. Probably not.

So I can't sleep. The past few weeks I go to bed, lie awake for three hours (at least) and then wake up intermittently for fear of sleeping through my alarm. And I always sleep through my alarm. Also my dreams are the stuff of acid trips. Although, not gonna lie, hot boys wrestling wolves = pretty freaking awesome. I might be sick.

I need a job.

I think I'm on the edge of having an anxiety attack. I'll just break down in the middle of the mall or something. "I just want to be a buttercup!" Kudos to me though, I manage to hide my crazy quite well, I think. Or not.

I discovered Sugar Mountain this weekend. Goodbye good dental health!

So tired...

so 2010 eh? kind of a fun number.

i have been unemployed for three weeks this sunday. and its valentine's. are the two related? not really. i do not like being unemployed mostly b/c i get bored quite easily and then i end up being angry and frustrated with everything around me.

i had a minor epiphany at bible study last night. perhaps the reason i have very few romantic tendencies etc is b/c i have the gift of singleness. personally i like to think of it more as a super-power. But Paul had a good point. life is significantly easier for a single person. if you feel that you should pack up and move to Indonesia, you can with fairly little hassle. Less hassle than say, moving a family of seven.

Also having a bf/husband means taking the initiative to please other people and take care of them. Not exactly my fortes.

im interested to see how this singleness business will work out. in the past, it has just been an excuse to make out with strangers and general bad decision making. perhaps this will be a new leaf that i will flip. we shall see.

my cat is preggers. it makes her paranoid. she'll probably sell the kittens for crack. what a crazy cat. i saw a st bernard last night where there ought not to have been one.

i havent blogged in a while. i should do it more often.

Anyways, i just caught up on my friend's blog which was an interesting and entertaining experience. I am now listening to Stuck In the Middle With You. havent heard it in a long time and it makes me happy :)

So its almost Christmas and im not sure how i feel about it. I'm feeling more apathetic about it this year than ever before and its making people around me angry. My big sister is home and is spending her time pissing me off and losing her luggage.

When did we decide to give presents to each other? and when did parents decide that their spoiled little brats deserve anything their little hearts desire and it is their right to snowplow anyone who gets between them and the Wii that they HAVE to have and abuse any and all employees that can't fulfill their every whim? im a tad bitter if you couldnt tell.

in defense of the Christmas spirit and all that jazz, it does tend to make people more generous. I had a group of people come into the pub after a hockey game and the first guy who left paid for them all (secretly). It was right at the end of my shift and it made my night a little brighter.

Charities use this generous spirit to their advantage and are all out there in full force, pushing starving children and homeless puppies on people. I support a lot of these organizations and im pretty sure ive given more money away this year than ever before. Some people think its a huge conspiracy for money that never gets to the kids, but im pretty sure at least some of it gets there and that's enough for me. Also it seems silly to hold on to my money to spend it on something pointless when it could be helping others with their basic everyday needs. It's only money and there's more where that came from.

Also in the spirit of Christmas and family and such, im very happy my parents are fairly sane people. I often take them for granted, when they are in fact, incredibly loving and fantastic people. They arent perfect, but after a conversation with a friend of mine the other night, i want to go home every night, hug them, and thank them for being there.

it makes me really sad when i think about the way some people treat their kids. No parents are perfect, but you can try to learn from your mistakes and make yourself better.

I could go on, but ive already shaken out a ton of brain contents tonight and its a lot for anyone reading this. its what happens when i ignore blogging for a while.

i cant feel my fingers anymore

so its late or early and i been doing some heavy thinking. mostly about how i manage to get so cold, yet all i do about it is throw on a blanket and complain when im barefoot...

anyways

i always feel strange about blogging about my personal life. its supposed to be a private thing and im a fairly big fan of keeping things that way. but apparently all the cool kids are throwing their lives out into the internet so i way as well. maybe it'll get lost in the cracks.

upon a discussion with a friend of mine, i've made a fairly intense discovery about myself. i can't have a serious discussion, even about something thats hurt me or made me sad without making a joke or attempting to diffuse the situation with humour. i dont think i'd ever thought about it til he pointed it out and now its bothering me.

I had a deep discussion with my father tonight. i appreciate his apologies and all, but i dont understand how he thinks a trip to a bookstore will make everything better. perhaps because its the one thing we have in common. still, presumptous and silly. i almost enjoyed turning down his offer.

i'm still pondering whether i want to let him attempt to buy my love or just forget it.

its interesting how your relationships with your parents can affect your romantic life. the more i think about it, the more it disturbs me.

song i like:
Boten Anna - Basshunter
its about a boy and his computer, but its in swedish so its cool