Jam Haus

So I'm at B and V's house in Guelph. I have been drinking and I have lucky charms on the inside of my tummy and a warm kitty on the outside. It is nice. (B, I will not eat all the lucky charms this time, i promise).

So my ex acquired a new girlfriend today. Frankly, i have mixed feelings. I do not envy her or have feelings of jealousy, but i am a bit confused. I was supposed to be the clever one who moved on to bigger and smarter things (and by bigger i mean taller ;)) but I'm still more or less where i was a year or so ago. This seems wrong.

On the bright side, I have several sexy boys who are fond of me, and decent in bed. I also have friends who are sexy, fond of me and are generally good eggs. Once i get into uni, get un house and start doing something worthwhile, hopefully my mindset will turn around.

Depressed Tory is no fun, I do not like her.

Perhaps some more alcohol!

rum at 2 AM may or may not prove to be a good idea...

i had the happiest weekend. I saw a friend I hadn't hung out with in some time, soaked up some vitamin D, and was threatened by an old man with a maple syrup bottle.

I have a tasty pina colada cooler. It is tasty. I really want chicken strips :)

So I am teaching a friend of mine how to enjoy alcohol in return for piano lessons. Should be good times!

I need both a Cosmo magazine and a drink...I need sexy advice and in the absence of girl-friends who have such knowledge, I need a Cosmo.

So apparently I'm posing for a friend picture-takingness. good times? we shall see.

I'm listening to Marianas Trench. I like this song *inserts lyrics*

You never really wanted it

You'll settle for a bit of it

We started with a big bang

And now it's comming back again

Hey, don't you feel it now?

My shiny side down

Hey, burning brighter still

And you're getting sick

And you're feeling it

It'll wear you down and wear you down

You chase it, breathing in and out and in and out

They'll push you up against the wall, against the wall

You didn't think you'd feel it all but you were wrong about it

Push

It's actually about heroin addiction but i like it.

LIBRARY!

i am sitting in the KPL (kitchener public library) and it is lovely. I love libraries. They embody everything that is good in the world. There is a man with crazy hair over in the corner. I don't know if i should compliment him on it? Would he be offended? I will just remain in awe from afar.

this is a comfy chair.

My neck really hurts. perhaps from sitting up all night watching films? probably...

trying to scout out an outlet so i can plug in and recharge. so far nothing...oh well i have 26 mins of battery left.

I hate people who talk on their cell phones in the library. There is a big sign in the front that says turn it off so TURN IT OFF! maybe if i throw this book he will shut up.

he's talking about Heroes. Asshole.

Did i mention i love the library? Someday i will go through with a shopping cart and check out all the books that look remotely interesting to me. Then i will take three weeks and read them all! librarians tend to hate me

i want fish and chips.

phone man wants someone to move out. wasnt paying attention. dont care.

If the library was a person, I would marry it.

Know who was cool? Machiavelli. I have his book, the Prince, but I have yet to read it. It's funky and purple. Ooo this music is so funky, it makes me want to obey the law!

Should i move next to cute studious looking boy who also is using a mac? He's hogging the closest outlet...I think i shall.

Enjoy, B!

1 Day=2 posts!

Because I Can

So I enjoy my friends and our mildly odd practices.

Pour example:

The majority of teens/twenty-somethings spend their weekends partying and getting wasted. While we partake in those activities from time to time, most days we sit in fast food places pondering our existence, and discussing improper pluralization. I think more fun is had when alcomohals are not involved.

I like to think it's because we are more intelligent. Perhaps we're just boring.

it is the most gorgeous day outside!!!!

I love my house. More specifically, the space surrounding my house. The rain has made it super green and all the trees are blowing in the breeze. *sigh* Happiness.

I am aware that my blogs tend to flow towards the more depressing and angsty. I have yet to determine why this is. I shall try to make it stop.

I has Peach Mango Fuze!!! Delicious! I think I will take up the study of adjectives. It really is quite intriguing. Or not...I'm a nerd.

I think I will go play outside. Morris also loves the sun! We will go on adventures! (for newcomers, Morris is my cat).

and so...

so i'm pro at multitasking. I want to know if this is a good thing to put on my resume or not. Some people think it implies work is done sloppily but i disagree.

apparently I have commitment issues. Shocker, I know, but I never really thought about it a lot...i can't even commit to a habit. (see Tory's inconsistent smoking)

*ponders*

*denial*

*moves on*

perhaps i will move away. Spain is nice. Also France. Need to brush up on my languages if that is to be the plan.

good lord my head feels funny. and there is a crazy rushing in my ears. It's been there for a while and I'm wondering if I should be worried. Probably not.

So I can't sleep. The past few weeks I go to bed, lie awake for three hours (at least) and then wake up intermittently for fear of sleeping through my alarm. And I always sleep through my alarm. Also my dreams are the stuff of acid trips. Although, not gonna lie, hot boys wrestling wolves = pretty freaking awesome. I might be sick.

I need a job.

I think I'm on the edge of having an anxiety attack. I'll just break down in the middle of the mall or something. "I just want to be a buttercup!" Kudos to me though, I manage to hide my crazy quite well, I think. Or not.

I discovered Sugar Mountain this weekend. Goodbye good dental health!

So tired...